Hello M,
Tuesday afternoon and you haven't contacted me at all since last week. Not even to say goodbye, i'm left guessing.
I'm sorry if you didn't like what I said on the phone last week. I tried ringing you back to explain it but your phone was already switched off. At first I thought your signal was still dead but it became apparent as time continued that it was indeed switched off.
I explained the reason behind what I said on the phone in a post on Avalonia. I thought you would have read that and replied to it, and at least been made aware of why I said what I did. My hope was that it would open your eyes and maybe do something about it. I figured you didn't realize what you were doing to us as you were so busy with work, and your mind was on that. All I was doing in that post was giving you the opportunity to see, but you used that opportunity to break us up, and now I feel such a fool for not seeing what was staring me right in the face. I believed your word so easily, I actually believed you loved me, loved us. It was so obvious when I stepped back, that your recent behaviour was simply leading up to you breaking up with me. Again, proved by your lack of contact.
If someone told me a few months ago, this is how we were going end, I would have laughed at them, but it's been days since you phoned me, so by your lack of contact one can only surmise that you wish no further contact. Rather obvious statement that, but had you wanted contact you would have phoned me, which you haven't, so it's obvious you no longer wish contact.
This will be the last time you will hear from me as I don’t like to linger where I am not wanted. I won't bother you again as it clear by your lack of contact or any explanations for lack of contact, you do not wish to be with me anymore. I'm making it easy for you. I've explained my reasons for the phone call, and for the post on Avalonia, but your silence and your absence speaks volumes.
I will ask you to keep the bank open so I can continue paying you until the debt is repaid in full. But again, you know me well enough to know I would insist on that. If I could repay you now, I would do so, so you could have your wish and be completely free of me. All I can do is promise to repay you as soon as I can.
Could you please acknowledge when you have read this.
I wish you well,
I wish you happiness,
Above all, I wish you love.
Cliché... but happens to be the truth.
Good luck with the Academy, and I wish your Mother blessings and love.
It's killing me losing you, but you already know that too.
Jody
xxxx
Tue Mar 28, 2017 6:10 pm